Friday, December 31, 2010

The Things I've Done and Haven't Done















(Above) - Still from Buck Starball's 'Our Last Year' Music Video
(Left) - 'Adorable Puppies' Bike Polo Team Shirt
(Bottom) - Album Cover for The Creepshow's 'They All Fall Down.' by Ashlea Wessel


- 2010 -

UPDATE! (March 22nd): A lot of things happened in 2010, but that shit's the past, man...

It was a transitional year, and while all years are, this last one really did seem like a setup for something I'm only just supposed to get started in these next few months; whether that's completing the Buck Starball music video I've begun or tapping out pages for that first novel I haven't yet.*

*Please note that a period has been used - and not a question mark - to punctuate the statement above.

I've never believed in forcing myself to make anything, or that you need to endlessly practice your craft in order to maintain it. I much rather prefer to let work happen when impulse or idea strikes than to exhaust my efforts and audience on filler pieces (like this post.. haha!).

This past weekend, a friend of mine (who actually gets her shit done) said to me.. "Inspiration is for assholes! Just show up to work."

I think at the time she was disagreeing with my position; dismissing it as an excuse. ...And probably it is an excuse! But whatever?! Right or wrong, the greater point is that I do need to show up for work more often than I have been.

But it's not like I'm not showing up for a different sort of work! I show up to my job-job. I show up with friends. I spend my time learning new skills and trades, going to new places and trying new things... I feel good about how I've been showing up on lots of stuff lately (sometimes with fist-pumping enthusiasm even)!

Over the last year, I helped create and facilitate a new model of program for dual diagnosed adults (that's people with a developmental and mental health disability), became an uncle, lost a sister (sorta), and played enough bike polo to get a little better at it and even compete. I've shared a lot of my time with others and for others...

And, on the other hand... I've been the biggest asshole!