The Things I've Done and Haven't Done

(Above) - Still from Buck Starball's 'Our Last Year' Music Video
(Left) - 'Adorable Puppies' Bike Polo Team Shirt
(Bottom) - Album Cover for The Creepshow's 'They All Fall Down.' by Ashlea Wessel

- 2010 -

UPDATE! (March 22nd): A lot of things happened in 2010, but that shit's the past, man...

It was a transitional year, and while all years are, this last one really did seem like a setup for something I'm only just supposed to get started in these next few months; whether that's completing the Buck Starball music video I've begun or tapping out pages for that first novel I haven't yet.*

*Please note that a period has been used - and not a question mark - to punctuate the statement above.

I've never believed in forcing myself to make anything, or that you need to endlessly practice your craft in order to maintain it. I much rather prefer to let work happen when impulse or idea strikes than to exhaust my efforts and audience on filler pieces (like this post.. haha!).

This past weekend, a friend of mine (who actually gets her shit done) said to me.. "Inspiration is for assholes! Just show up to work."

I think at the time she was disagreeing with my position; dismissing it as an excuse. ...And probably it is an excuse! But whatever?! Right or wrong, the greater point is that I do need to show up for work more often than I have been.

But it's not like I'm not showing up for a different sort of work! I show up to my job-job. I show up with friends. I spend my time learning new skills and trades, going to new places and trying new things... I feel good about how I've been showing up on lots of stuff lately (sometimes with fist-pumping enthusiasm even)!

Over the last year, I helped create and facilitate a new model of program for dual diagnosed adults (that's people with a developmental and mental health disability), became an uncle, lost a sister (sorta), and played enough bike polo to get a little better at it and even compete. I've shared a lot of my time with others and for others...

And, on the other hand... I've been the biggest asshole!

MOVING APARTy

with Buck Starball and Chang-a-Lang!

Friday, February 26th, 2010 

@ 688 College St. Apt. 2

I threw a party a few weeks ago because I was moving out of my apartment of 4+ years, and because we have always had one around this time; the end of February... sort of as a send off to the shittiest month of the year.  True..  a bunch of people have birthdays then (including me!), but rather than focus on celebrating the same old people again and again... I thought the empty space, this time around, was a good opportunity to celebrate everyone else. 

...Including living space (or our relationship to the places we inhabit).

It was a special night - and not just because it got busted by the cops (12 officers! 7 squad cars!!) - but because of how much of it came from so many friends helping out; and just because!

Whether by driving band gear and furniture back-and-forth, picking up kegs and lasers, or filling up rooms with their installations, rock n' roll or dance parties...  It was really fun to orchestrate and collaborate on the bigger scale!  To witness how wonderful folks can be... how willing they are to contribute if/when asked or given the opportunity... and then have a crap-load of people come out and enjoy themselves with it...

..Thanks again! ...Goodbye apartment!*

* (Yes! This is most-definitely.. super-late, dwelling-on-the-past-type-shit instead of making and writing something new!  ..A half-assed rehashing rather than a respectable documentation of what went on, and I'm sorry for that... but not really.  I don't have the internet on my computer yet and I've had other shit to do.  BLEH!  It's hard to be self-indulgent and on-time sometimes, y'know?!)

Friends and Foreigners

"Oh, how I have truly loved thee.."*

..But I 'm flying out to London today. And later Berlin for a week. And then back to London for a few days. I'll be back on the 20th. Miss me.. tenderly!

There should be many highlights to post about over the coming couple of weeks, as both of these places are AMAZING and fodder for much more interesting 'typity-type' than my past few weeks' day-to-day of getting smacked in the head by 16-yr old Autistic students (who laugh and shout out the most perverted and mind-boggling shit you will ever hear about lady-parts), and alternately, drinking in-and-around Ossington every single night. ..Ick!


When I get back, I'm making my very first (2nd? 3rd?) music video.. for Buck Starball's 'Our Last Year;' and putting together some kind of Kitchen Art Show for mid-to-end May, featuring this guy..

- Greg Miller-

(..and probably some others?). Greg is painting a mural on our kitchen wall this month that, judging from his previous wonderful work, will probably involve some combination of penis-arms, psychedelia and portraits of Star Trek: TNG alumni in a crazy-amazing detail that should delight the cans of chickpeas in my cupboard to animated life. Paired with some oddities, knick knacks and random things sized humbly enough to fit inside this wunder-cabinet type thing we have, some film projection on the back deck perhaps, and whatever else can be done to mess up the space for a couple days.. this could be a really good event!

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Ummm... so yeah?! London and Berlin. See you in two weeks!!